My fifteenth quarter life crisis
Okay...I am probably having what is my fifteenth quarter life crisis. Don't worry, these happen often enough where I am not a woman on the verge of anything...
So I like my job. I would even say I really like my job. I'm having the time of my life - I get to travel, I work with smart people, I love the company and the culture. I work hard. Really hard.
But, what should I really be doing? I feel like I'm still riding the procrastination train. Eventually, we'll get to the end of the line and I'll have to disembark. It's that same sinking feeling you get when you are supposed to be completing an assignment for school - you do something fun in the meantime, but you know, eventually, you are going to have to write that paper. Similarly, I think eventually I'll have to face the music and figure out what to do with myself. So shouldn't I just bite the bullet and do it now?
If only it were that easy. How do I know what I'm meant to be doing? What activity would make best use of my skills and passions? I turn this over and over in my mind and can't come up with an answer.
Sometimes, at the end of this consideration, I conclude that I must be incredibly self-absorbed to be able to spend so much time contemplating myself. And other times I think that I must not spend enough time thinking about myself since I clearly am not self-aware enough to know what I should be pursuing. Drat!
A friend of mine says that she always thought I would/should be a pediatrician. Friends, comrades...did you ever envision me in a particular calling? Send me an email and let me know...I'm all ears.
So I like my job. I would even say I really like my job. I'm having the time of my life - I get to travel, I work with smart people, I love the company and the culture. I work hard. Really hard.
But, what should I really be doing? I feel like I'm still riding the procrastination train. Eventually, we'll get to the end of the line and I'll have to disembark. It's that same sinking feeling you get when you are supposed to be completing an assignment for school - you do something fun in the meantime, but you know, eventually, you are going to have to write that paper. Similarly, I think eventually I'll have to face the music and figure out what to do with myself. So shouldn't I just bite the bullet and do it now?
If only it were that easy. How do I know what I'm meant to be doing? What activity would make best use of my skills and passions? I turn this over and over in my mind and can't come up with an answer.
Sometimes, at the end of this consideration, I conclude that I must be incredibly self-absorbed to be able to spend so much time contemplating myself. And other times I think that I must not spend enough time thinking about myself since I clearly am not self-aware enough to know what I should be pursuing. Drat!
A friend of mine says that she always thought I would/should be a pediatrician. Friends, comrades...did you ever envision me in a particular calling? Send me an email and let me know...I'm all ears.
posted by Anna at 10:17 PM
4 Comments:
This reminds me of a quote by John Lennon:
"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."
I hear you. I completely believe that it is about the journey. However, I also believe that the type of journey you have is affected by the destination you seek.
In other words, those plans I'm making should be meaningful ones, because they drive what happens to me to a large extent.
Do you agree?
weirdos
Sorry I never got back to this one. I do agree, and until recently I was in the same boat.
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